THE FIXER FILES Available Again for a Short Time

Due to the launch of THE MADAGASCAR MATTER in serial format (and my thanks to those of you who have subscribed – you’re awesome, every last one of ya!) there’s been interest in reading the entire series by those who haven’t yet done so. As you know, I released a compilation ebook containing all FIVE Lawson Vampire novels, plus the novella I wrote for Myspace.com in 2006 and two additional short stories. To feed the need, I’m making the collection available again for a LIMITED TIME ONLY. If you’d like to grab the collection, please do so now, because this will not last long at all! Here’s the info you need:

THE FIXER
THE INVOKER
THE DESTRUCTOR
THE SYNDICATE
THE COURIER (novella)
THE KENSEI
RED TIDE (short story)
THE PRICE OF A GOOD DRINK (short story)

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Thoughtful Thursday Explained

About six-eight months ago, I came up with the idea for Thoughtful Thursday.  Originally designed to help folks in my Twitter network with the hashtag #thoughtfulthursday, I expanded it to my networks on Facebook and Plaxo as well.  Thoughtful Thursday is something everyone can do.  All it involves is taking a few moments out of your day and asking your network very simply, “how can I help you today?”  Generally, most participants have certain areas they specialize in.  For example, I’ve mostly answered questions about writing, publishing, my experiences with Hollywood, martial arts and self protection.  I’ve also done quick critiques of writing samples.

The goal of Thoughtful Thursday is to take a day out of the week and remind ourselves that the universe does not revolve around our wishes, but that we are all connected and need each other’s help from time-to-time.  It spreads a great positive vibe and it’s a nice and easy way to help others.  If you’re on Twitter, I ask that you use the hashtag #thoughtfulthursday around any activities you do – be it asking your network they need help, or asking for help yourself.  In this way, it’s my hope that more people start participating.  Exponential growth is a very cool thing when it comes to helping people.

Thoughtful Thursday has been on hiatus due to a huge number of obligations I had, but I feel strongly enough about it that I want to bring it back each week.  This isn’t to say that we should only be nice to others on Thursday, rather it serves as a reminder that we all have attributes and skills that others will find helpful and we can be so at any time.

I hope you’ll join me today in asking your network of friends, colleagues, acquaintances, and family: how can I help you today?

Thanks!

PS:  If you haven’t checke dout the first chapter of the new Lawson Vampire adventure The Madagascar Matter, you can do so by clicking here!

THE MADAGASCAR MATTER – Chapter One (Full)

Chapter One

I flew in­to An­tana­nari­vo at 9pm on Tues­day night af­ter hav­ing bounced my way across half the world from where I’d been pre­vi­ous­ly in Ed­mon­ton, Al­ber­ta. When I left, the cold weath­er of the Cana­di­an win­ter saw me off in tem­per­atures of twen­ty be­low. Land­ing, the pi­lot in­formed us that the cur­rent tem­per­ature in the cap­ital city of Mada­gas­car was a balmy eighty-​five and hu­mid.

I trav­eled light. It was a habit drilled in­to us back in the Acade­my. Less bag­gage means you can move quick­er, skirt cus­toms lines, and get out of the air­port as fast as pos­si­ble. My in­struc­tors al­ways harped on the fact that air­ports were too con­fin­ing. If shit went down, the last thing you want­ed was a gun bat­tle be­tween you and your tar­get amid a hun­dred se­cu­ri­ty types all look­ing for an ex­cuse to fi­nal­ly fire their is­sue sidearm.

My pass­port was French and the of­fi­cial who glanced at it and broke in­to a toothy grin. “Bon soir, M’sieur.”

I smiled back. “Bon soir.”

He glanced through the pass­port, but I didn’t wor­ry. The Coun­cil wouldn’t dream of sup­ply­ing their ac­tive Fix­ers with any­thing but a le­git­imate pass­port. Mine came right from the cen­tral pass­port of­fice in Paris, craft­ed with care by a French vam­pire who then for­ward­ed it on to the Coun­cil, know­ing very lit­tle of who would be us­ing it and why, on­ly that for all in­tents and pur­pos­es of this as­sign­ment, my home res­idence was in St. Ger­main-​des-​Pres, which worked out well since the place was filled with jazz clubs and I was on a ma­jor Dex­ter Gor­don kick any­way.

The cus­toms of­fi­cial stamped my pass­port and hand­ed it back to me. I smiled. “Mer­ci.”

“De rien.”

I walked out of the air­port and in­to the thick soup of hu­mid night air. I took a breath and glanced around. Ze­ro had men­tioned there would be a con­tact by the taxi stand. I made my way over and watched a line of beat up Dat­suns un­du­late like an inch­worm as each seg­ment scooped up a pas­sen­ger and then dis­en­gaged from the rest of the line.

“You’re late.”

I knew the voice and couldn’t help the smile that broke out over my face. “I didn’t ex­pect to see you here.”

“Didn’t I tell you there’d be a con­tact?”

I nod­ded. Ze­ro looked re­laxed, his bald head gleamed in the glow of the yel­low light bulbs over­head. “Yeah, but I thought you were in Lon­don.”

“I was. Now I’m here.” He led me away from the taxi line by my arm and we walked to­ward the park­ing lot. “We’ve got plen­ty to dis­cuss.”

“Like why there are two of us on this op.”

Ze­ro nod­ded. “This one goes back, my friend. Back a lot longer than any­thing in re­cent mem­ory.”

“How far?”

Ze­ro point­ed up ahead at a Range Rover. When­ev­er you had to drive in a third world coun­try, there was noth­ing bet­ter. “We can talk in­side. Too many ears in these parts.”

I glanced around but couldn’t make out any­thing de­spite my ex­cel­lent night vi­sion. But I trust­ed Ze­ro with my life and if he said there were lis­ten­ers out there, that meant we stayed mum un­til it was safe to do oth­er­wise.

Ze­ro ap­proached the Range Rover and reached up in­to the wheel well. His hand came out a mo­ment lat­er with the mag­net­ic case. He took the key out, un­locked the door and slid in­side, reach­ing over to un­lock my door. The in­te­ri­or of the car was hu­mid and hot. “How’d you wran­gle this?”

He shrugged. “Coun­cil set it up. Had some­one swing by ear­li­er and park it here.”

“I’m al­ready im­pressed with the lev­el of in­volve­ment here. What the hell’s go­ing on?”

Ze­ro start­ed the en­gine and turned on the ra­dio. A night­ly news pro­gram in Mala­gasy, one of the of­fi­cial lan­guages in Mada­gas­car, poured out of the speak­ers. “We ride in­to town tonight and first thing in the morn­ing, we have our first meet­ing.”

“With who?”

Ze­ro placed his hands on the steer­ing wheel. “Guy who knows how to find the man we’re look­ing for.”

The way Ze­ro’s fore­head creased con­cerned me. I’d been on my own now for al­most ten years. Ze­ro’s sud­den reap­pear­ance on a mis­sion had me won­der­ing what was go­ing on.

He glanced over and grinned. “You haven’t screwed up, if that’s what you’re think­ing, Law­son.”

“I’m not sure what to think.”

“Been a while since we last worked to­geth­er, hasn’t it?”

“I thought I was through with the ap­pren­tice thing.”

He nod­ded. “You are. This has noth­ing to do with your pro­fi­cien­cy at com­plet­ing as­sign­ments. It has ev­ery­thing to do with the rather un­ortho­dox na­ture of this as­sign­ment.”

We drove down the wind­ing streets that led in­to the cap­ital. A lot of the homes were still built out of wood that had been yanked out of the forests to the north­west of the city. At one time, the rul­ing class even had a palace built out of wood. It had been re­placed with one made of brick and stone.

Ze­ro kept the gas on and we sped down the nar­row lanes. Around us, the squat build­ings seemed to lean in. Lights flick­ered in win­dows. Elec­tric­ity might be a rar­ity in some parts, it seemed.

“You ev­er heard of the Mada­gas­car Plan?”

I glanced back at Ze­ro. The crease in his fore­head looked deep­er now. He was deep in thought. “No.” I shrugged. “Should I have?”

“Not nec­es­sar­ily. It was be­fore your cen­ten­ni­al, any­way. I’d be sur­prised if you knew about it at all.”

“So, tell me.”

“When the Nazis came to pow­er in the mid-1930s, one of their de­signs on the Eu­ro­pean Jews was to ship them all off to this is­land. Ba­si­cal­ly, they want­ed them out of fortress Eu­rope and some­where far away. Mada­gas­car was con­sid­ered ide­al for the pur­pose.”

“What-​they would have sim­ply im­pris­oned them here?”

Ze­ro shrugged. “I think the full de­tails of the plan in­volved some sort of mass ex­ter­mi­na­tion once the cap­tives were here. But no one re­al­ly knows be­cause the plan nev­er got much be­yond be­ing just that.”

“So, why are we here now? The sec­ond world war was a long time ago. Thir­ty-​two years to be ex­act.”

Ze­ro eyed me in the dark­ness. “We’re here be­cause the per­son who for­mu­lat­ed the Mada­gas­car Plan was one of us.”

“A vam­pire?” I smirked. “You’re jok­ing, of course. How in the hell would Hitler have al­lowed such a thing?”

“Don’t be naïve, Law­son. You’re too good for that. You know as well as I do that the Coun­cil has mem­bers of our race em­bed­ded in ev­ery pow­er­ful or­ga­ni­za­tion in the world.”

“Sure, but the Nazis?”

“They were an­oth­er po­lit­ical par­ty like all of the rest we’ve ev­er in­fil­trat­ed. No one knew what their po­ten­tial was un­til it was too late. And dur­ing that time, there weren’t as many ac­tive Fix­ers as there are now. It blew up be­fore we could step in.”

“And our man on the in­side? He was swayed?”

“He be­came a sym­pa­thiz­er to the ma­ni­acal plans of Hitler. We’ve al­ways worked hard to co­ex­ist with oth­er races. But who knows what hap­pened? Could be the stress of work­ing un­der­cov­er too long. You know the risks. What can hap­pen.”

“You for­get who you are. On­ly what you’re try­ing to be.”

“The lies be­come the truth,” said Ze­ro. “This guy be­came what he sup­pos­ed­ly hat­ed.”

“You say sup­pos­ed­ly.”

“There’s some ev­idence now that he might have duped the Coun­cil.”

“He was in league with the Nazis the en­tire time?”

Ze­ro nod­ded. “It’s pos­si­ble. Some of our kind over the years haven’t al­ways ac­cept­ed the idea that we should be in the shad­ows. They claim the birthright that hu­mans have al­ways owned. That puts us in a del­icate po­si­tion.”

“And this guy-“

“Prob­ably want­ed noth­ing more than to see the Jews ex­ter­mi­nat­ed as a means of set­ting oth­er geno­cides in mo­tion.”

“To­day the Jews, to­mor­row the Chi­nese, and so on…”

“Sure. With all of that go­ing on, who would ev­er as­sume that there was an un­known race work­ing be­hind the scenes to po­si­tion them­selves?”

“That kind of plan would take a hel­lu­va long time.”

Ze­ro smiled. “Well, we do have that ben­efit of a longer lifes­pan. He might well have been very pa­tient.”

Ze­ro rolled to a stop in front of a run­down ho­tel. “Home for the night.”

I looked at the four-​sto­ry struc­ture and winced. I’d been in a lot of crap­py joints in my rel­ative­ly short time in the field, but this was pret­ty aw­ful. The bal­conies sagged and the wood sup­port­ing the struc­ture looked like it was ready to cave in at any mo­ment. “This place safe?”

Ze­ro shrugged. “By safe, I as­sume you mean it will keep us pro­tect­ed in the event our pres­ence here hasn’t gone un­no­ticed. You’re not com­ment­ing on the over­all struc­tural in­tegri­ty.”

“Ac­tu­al­ly, that’s ex­act­ly what I’m ask­ing.”

“Oh, well, in that case, no. It’s not safe at all.” He peered out of the wind­shield. “If I had to haz­ard a guess, I’d say a good rain will bring it down.” He grinned. “Lucky for us, rain’s not in the fore­cast.” He pulled the Range Rover around the back­side of the build­ing and parked it.

“One more thing.”

I looked at him as he reached un­der the driv­er’s seat and came up with a pair of pis­tols. He hand­ed me one. The Brown­ing 9mm felt heav­ier than I re­mem­bered, but I’d been us­ing the Beretta late­ly. I popped the mag­azine out, checked the top round and then topped it off be­fore slid­ing the mag­azine back in­to the pis­tol. Ze­ro racked his slide and glanced at me.

“We’ve got ac­cess to oth­er weapons if we need them.”

“Will we?”

Ze­ro’s smile flashed in the dark­ness. “They don’t ask stal­lions to haul hay­seed, Law­son.”

We slid out in­to the hu­mid night and Ze­ro led us in­side.

I stopped him. “So wait – which one of us is the stal­lion?”

Ze­ro shook his head and wan­dered in­side. I stayed on the front stoop in the shad­ows a few min­utes longer, watch­ing for any traf­fic that might have coast­ed in af­ter us. A good surveil­lance team would know how to ap­proach with­out show­ing their hand.

But the night didn’t re­veal any­thing. On­ly a few scat­tered souls loi­tered in this part of town. I could smell the des­per­ation in the air, though, and that’s nev­er a good thing. Des­per­ate peo­ple are like­ly to try any­thing. I didn’t want any of them com­ing up on me while I tried to get some sleep.

“Law­son.”

I glanced up. Ze­ro waved me in­side. We walked past the front desk where the clerk had al­ready gone back to read­ing a news­pa­per. The stairs lead­ing up to the third floor might have been made out of tooth­picks.

“Don’t say it,” said Ze­ro as we crest­ed an­oth­er floor.

“Just hap­py we haven’t plum­met­ed to our deaths yet.”

We stopped out­side a door and Ze­ro hand­ed me a key. “You’re next door.”

“Usu­al wake up?”

“Yeah.”

I heft­ed my bag and nod­ded. “See you then.”

I en­tered and tossed my bag on the bed. The springs groaned as the bag land­ed. I checked the room quick­ly, not­ing that it was clear of any­one wait­ing to kill me. At least for now.

A small door led to the bal­cony over­look­ing the street and I opened the win­dows up as well. A breeze blew in and cooled the in­te­ri­or down, but it was still hot. The room felt like an oven and I won­dered how Ze­ro was far­ing. The heat nev­er both­ered him as much as it did me, but he hat­ed the cold.

I checked the room for any lis­ten­ing de­vices, but truth be told, there weren’t a whole lot of place for them to hide. All the usu­al sus­pects – be­hind the mir­ror, the tele­phone, the pot of wilt­ing flow­ers, the over­head light – were clean. It didn’t mean the place was se­cure, but if there were any elec­tron­ic bugs, I couldn’t find them.

The show­er wa­ter ran brown for a bout five min­utes be­fore fi­nal­ly turn­ing clear. I got a luke­warm tem­per­ature, stripped down and stepped in­side. I’m not big on long show­ers – too much time in a com­pro­mis­ing po­si­tion – so I lath­ered up and got out, wrap­ping a tow­el around me while I dug some fresh clothes out of my bag.

Dressed again, I sat down on the edge of the bed and fished the hair­brush out of my kit. The han­dle un­screwed and a test tube filled with blood slid out in­to my hand. I frowned, popped the lid off and downed the con­tents be­fore I could re­al­ly taste any of it.

Weird, huh? A vam­pire who can’t even stand the taste of blood. Well, that’s me. I didn’t ask to be born in­to this race of liv­ing blood­suck­ers and giv­en my pref­er­ence, I’d much rather have been part of the sect of hu­man­ity my kind branched off from. The food’s a hel­lu­va lot bet­ter.

I don’t even call it blood. To me, it’s a lot eas­ier to drink if I call it “juice.” Hey, at least I’m hon­est about my per­son­al hang-​ups.

Re­vi­tal­ized as I was, the jour­ney had me think­ing about sleep, es­pe­cial­ly since Ze­ro had promised one of his fa­mous ear­ly-​morn­ing wake-​up calls. To Ze­ro, four in the morn­ing was a good time to wake up. I much pre­fer sleep­ing in when I can. Late­ly, that hadn’t been of­ten.

I slid the Brown­ing un­der the pil­low and then laid on the bed. I leaned back and found the pil­low, de­spite its thread­bare ap­pear­ance, ac­tu­al­ly cra­dled my head nice­ly. A soft breeze blew in from out­side and I let my eyes close, breath­ing in time to my slow­ing heart­beat…the rhythm of the heat…

…it in­vad­ed my dreams that night. Far off on a high plain where the tall grass whipped to and fro stood a man sil­hou­et­ted by a blis­ter­ing sun. I could hear the sound of trib­al drums far off. The sun bit in­to my eyes, mak­ing me squint. I tast­ed the salt of my own sweat, my tongue felt thick and mossy. I craved wa­ter. Shade. A cool breeze. The man danced in time to the grass whip­ping around him. Clouds of dust caked the air. I strug­gled to breathe. And I could see he held some­thing in his hands. With a sud­den thrust, he seemed to stab it right at my heart-

-click.

Some sounds have the pow­er to jerk you right out of a deep sleep. Es­pe­cial­ly when you’ve been trained to in­stant­ly cat­ego­rize them and re­al­ize ex­act­ly what they meant.

I snapped my eyes open.

The sun from my dreams was re­placed by a bril­liant white flash­light burn­ing in­to my face. But the light didn’t both­er me.

The Colt 1911 that had been out­fit­ted with a cus­tom sound sup­pres­sor point­ing right at my chest with its ham­mer drawn back, ready to fire both­ered me a whole lot more.

© 2010 by Jon F. Merz All rights re­served

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Birth of a Year (Part 2 of 2)

Note: if you haven’t read the first part of this post yet, you can do so by clicking here to read it

So I’ve let the first half of this essay sit out online for a few days now (despite telling you all that the companion piece would appear within 24 hours) because I wanted those who read it to let it sink in for a while.  I know plenty of people who would read something like what I wrote and then pretend that it didn’t apply to them, because it’s easier to pretend than it is to take responsibility for one’s actions.  That’s the thing about death; it’s easier to give up than it is to stay in the fight, keep swinging despite overwhelming odds, and still keep fighting when Death comes anyway.  Conversely, birth is anything but easy (just ask any woman who has gone though labor and delivery!)

2010 dawns as any new year does: with millions of us vowing to enact new resolutions, new lifestyles, changes to our diet, our careers, our wallets.  With startling regularity, these resolutions fall by the wayside as the days pass and the brightness of the New Year starts to wane as we trundle into February.  Depending on your personal amount of self-discipline, those resolutions may last longer or shorter.

The question for 2010 isn’t what your resolutions are or how many you’re going to make/break.  There’s only one question you have to answer: will 2010 be different?  Will this be the year you steer your personal destiny toward greatness?

Greatness refers to anything you aspire to, any dream you’ve nurtured for years and years, any desire you might covet.  Your definition of greatness is unique.  It’s as individual as you are.  As such, there should be very little actually stopping you from achieving it.  In fact, I’d wager the single biggest obstacle to your achievement of greatness isn’t an external factor, but rather an internal one.

We’ve all got decisions we might regret; actions we took that didn’t pan out as we’d intended, things we wish we’d done.  Those little regrets pile up inside of us; individually they’re small, but together they start to form impenetrable brick walls hindering our forward progression.  How many brick walls do you have inside of you?  Are there truly brick walls outside of you that hinder your progress?  (In fairness, there might be…)

As you start 2010, don’t concentrate on the past (unless it’s to learn from previous mistakes) and the regrets you might have.  You are where you are and there’s no amount of memory regression, thought backpedaling, or therapeutic horse puckey that’s going to change the past, since none of those things enable you to go back in time and change history.  The present is where you are at now.  The future lays before you.  Your past is simply that: already passed.  Honesty gives you the opportunity to understand what you truly want from life.  Courage and discipline are the tools to earn that greatness you aspire to.

“If it was easy, everyone would be doing it.”

Self-help “gurus” are often fond of telling the masses that we can all be great.  What they mean is that we all have the potential to be great.  But most people will not embrace that potential because it’s a hard slog reaching it.  It takes a gut-awful amount of work, blood, sweat, and tears that most people are simply not comfortable enduring.  As such, the real truth is that most people won’t ever find greatness.  At a certain point, they have that realization when they figure out how much work is involved and so instead of greatness, they aspire to mediocrity – that notion of “it’s good enough.”  I’d argue that this is exactly why the United States of America is going to have a serious problem with other countries surpassing us in the future – because the majority of our citizens are lazy schlubs who live by that motto of “good enough.”

I’m not saying this because I hate the US, far from it.  And if you know my background, you know I am very much a patriot.  I say this because there’s an epidemic of mediocrity sweeping this nation.  It’s why people fail to keep their resolutions.  We, as a nation, have made failure a bad word.  When every child makes a sports team or some parent calls up an employer because their recent college graduate failed to secure a job position, there’s a serious problem.  Can you imagine the debacle if every candidate who tried out for Delta Force Selection was granted entry because the Directing Staff didn’t want to hurt their feelings?  Instead of a top-notch special operations unit, we’d have a bunch of idiots entrusted with carrying out the most dangerous national security assignments (and as a result, we’d have a helluva lot of dead operators)  It’s a ridiculous notion, right?  But that’s exactly what we’ve done in most other areas of our society.  Failure is bad, so instead, everyone “wins.”  But winning is exactly what we aren’t doing.  We’re cutting our very legs out from underneath us.

Failure isn’t bad at all.  It’s how we measure ourselves, prove our mettle, and gain the perspective necessary to understand when we’re actually achieving greatness.  Failure’s only bad if you allow it to overwhelm you and cause you to sit in the corner and sulk away the remainder of your life.  The majority of the most successful people in the world have failed countless times.  What distinguishes them from everyone else who failed is that they didn’t give up; they got back up, learned from the failure, and got back into the fight.  They refused to accept the notion that things were “good enough.”  They were honest with themselves, knew what they wanted, and kept going until they achieved that goal.

The birth of 2010 represents an incredible opportunity for all of us.  I know what I’m aiming to achieve this year.  I hope you’ll all take a few hours to analyze what your own goals or dreams are.  Understand the reasons underlying those goals and dreams.  Why do you want them?  (be honest, there’s no “right” answer required – just an honest one.  If you want millions of dollars so you can gloat at your annoying miserly cousin, then embrace that reason as honestly as you can.)  Once you’ve done that, prepare yourself for battle.  Tell yourself you’re not going to settle for “good enough.”  Even if you fail the first time, you’re going to keep fighting until you win.  Honesty, courage, and the discipline to keep going.  One foot in front of the other in front of the other in front of the other…every step you take forward is one step further away from those who have given up and settled for “good enough.”

Dare to be honest.

Dare to be courageous.

Dare to be disciplined.

Dare when others tremble in fear.

Live 2010 like no other year before it.

Happy New Year everyone!