Due to the launch of THE MADAGASCAR MATTER in serial format (and my thanks to those of you who have subscribed – you’re awesome, every last one of ya!) there’s been interest in reading the entire series by those who haven’t yet done so. As you know, I released a compilation ebook containing all FIVE Lawson Vampire novels, plus the novella I wrote for Myspace.com in 2006 and two additional short stories. To feed the need, I’m making the collection available again for a LIMITED TIME ONLY. If you’d like to grab the collection, please do so now, because this will not last long at all! Here’s the info you need:
THE FIXER
THE INVOKER
THE DESTRUCTOR
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THE PRICE OF A GOOD DRINK (short story)
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About six-eight months ago, I came up with the idea for Thoughtful Thursday. Originally designed to help folks in my Twitter network with the hashtag #thoughtfulthursday, I expanded it to my networks on Facebook and Plaxo as well. Thoughtful Thursday is something everyone can do. All it involves is taking a few moments out of your day and asking your network very simply, “how can I help you today?” Generally, most participants have certain areas they specialize in. For example, I’ve mostly answered questions about writing, publishing, my experiences with Hollywood, martial arts and self protection. I’ve also done quick critiques of writing samples.
The goal of Thoughtful Thursday is to take a day out of the week and remind ourselves that the universe does not revolve around our wishes, but that we are all connected and need each other’s help from time-to-time. It spreads a great positive vibe and it’s a nice and easy way to help others. If you’re on Twitter, I ask that you use the hashtag #thoughtfulthursday around any activities you do – be it asking your network they need help, or asking for help yourself. In this way, it’s my hope that more people start participating. Exponential growth is a very cool thing when it comes to helping people.
Thoughtful Thursday has been on hiatus due to a huge number of obligations I had, but I feel strongly enough about it that I want to bring it back each week. This isn’t to say that we should only be nice to others on Thursday, rather it serves as a reminder that we all have attributes and skills that others will find helpful and we can be so at any time.
I hope you’ll join me today in asking your network of friends, colleagues, acquaintances, and family: how can I help you today?
Thanks!
PS: If you haven’t checke dout the first chapter of the new Lawson Vampire adventure The Madagascar Matter, you can do so by clicking here!
I flew into Antananarivo at 9pm on Tuesday night after having bounced my way across half the world from where I’d been previously in Edmonton, Alberta. When I left, the cold weather of the Canadian winter saw me off in temperatures of twenty below. Landing, the pilot informed us that the current temperature in the capital city of Madagascar was a balmy eighty-five and humid.
I traveled light. It was a habit drilled into us back in the Academy. Less baggage means you can move quicker, skirt customs lines, and get out of the airport as fast as possible. My instructors always harped on the fact that airports were too confining. If shit went down, the last thing you wanted was a gun battle between you and your target amid a hundred security types all looking for an excuse to finally fire their issue sidearm.
My passport was French and the official who glanced at it and broke into a toothy grin. “Bon soir, M’sieur.”
I smiled back. “Bon soir.”
He glanced through the passport, but I didn’t worry. The Council wouldn’t dream of supplying their active Fixers with anything but a legitimate passport. Mine came right from the central passport office in Paris, crafted with care by a French vampire who then forwarded it on to the Council, knowing very little of who would be using it and why, only that for all intents and purposes of this assignment, my home residence was in St. Germain-des-Pres, which worked out well since the place was filled with jazz clubs and I was on a major Dexter Gordon kick anyway.
The customs official stamped my passport and handed it back to me. I smiled. “Merci.”
“De rien.”
I walked out of the airport and into the thick soup of humid night air. I took a breath and glanced around. Zero had mentioned there would be a contact by the taxi stand. I made my way over and watched a line of beat up Datsuns undulate like an inchworm as each segment scooped up a passenger and then disengaged from the rest of the line.
“You’re late.”
I knew the voice and couldn’t help the smile that broke out over my face. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”
“Didn’t I tell you there’d be a contact?”
I nodded. Zero looked relaxed, his bald head gleamed in the glow of the yellow light bulbs overhead. “Yeah, but I thought you were in London.”
“I was. Now I’m here.” He led me away from the taxi line by my arm and we walked toward the parking lot. “We’ve got plenty to discuss.”
“Like why there are two of us on this op.”
Zero nodded. “This one goes back, my friend. Back a lot longer than anything in recent memory.”
“How far?”
Zero pointed up ahead at a Range Rover. Whenever you had to drive in a third world country, there was nothing better. “We can talk inside. Too many ears in these parts.”
I glanced around but couldn’t make out anything despite my excellent night vision. But I trusted Zero with my life and if he said there were listeners out there, that meant we stayed mum until it was safe to do otherwise.
Zero approached the Range Rover and reached up into the wheel well. His hand came out a moment later with the magnetic case. He took the key out, unlocked the door and slid inside, reaching over to unlock my door. The interior of the car was humid and hot. “How’d you wrangle this?”
He shrugged. “Council set it up. Had someone swing by earlier and park it here.”
“I’m already impressed with the level of involvement here. What the hell’s going on?”
Zero started the engine and turned on the radio. A nightly news program in Malagasy, one of the official languages in Madagascar, poured out of the speakers. “We ride into town tonight and first thing in the morning, we have our first meeting.”
“With who?”
Zero placed his hands on the steering wheel. “Guy who knows how to find the man we’re looking for.”
The way Zero’s forehead creased concerned me. I’d been on my own now for almost ten years. Zero’s sudden reappearance on a mission had me wondering what was going on.
He glanced over and grinned. “You haven’t screwed up, if that’s what you’re thinking, Lawson.”
“I’m not sure what to think.”
“Been a while since we last worked together, hasn’t it?”
“I thought I was through with the apprentice thing.”
He nodded. “You are. This has nothing to do with your proficiency at completing assignments. It has everything to do with the rather unorthodox nature of this assignment.”
We drove down the winding streets that led into the capital. A lot of the homes were still built out of wood that had been yanked out of the forests to the northwest of the city. At one time, the ruling class even had a palace built out of wood. It had been replaced with one made of brick and stone.
Zero kept the gas on and we sped down the narrow lanes. Around us, the squat buildings seemed to lean in. Lights flickered in windows. Electricity might be a rarity in some parts, it seemed.
“You ever heard of the Madagascar Plan?”
I glanced back at Zero. The crease in his forehead looked deeper now. He was deep in thought. “No.” I shrugged. “Should I have?”
“Not necessarily. It was before your centennial, anyway. I’d be surprised if you knew about it at all.”
“So, tell me.”
“When the Nazis came to power in the mid-1930s, one of their designs on the European Jews was to ship them all off to this island. Basically, they wanted them out of fortress Europe and somewhere far away. Madagascar was considered ideal for the purpose.”
“What-they would have simply imprisoned them here?”
Zero shrugged. “I think the full details of the plan involved some sort of mass extermination once the captives were here. But no one really knows because the plan never got much beyond being just that.”
“So, why are we here now? The second world war was a long time ago. Thirty-two years to be exact.”
Zero eyed me in the darkness. “We’re here because the person who formulated the Madagascar Plan was one of us.”
“A vampire?” I smirked. “You’re joking, of course. How in the hell would Hitler have allowed such a thing?”
“Don’t be naïve, Lawson. You’re too good for that. You know as well as I do that the Council has members of our race embedded in every powerful organization in the world.”
“Sure, but the Nazis?”
“They were another political party like all of the rest we’ve ever infiltrated. No one knew what their potential was until it was too late. And during that time, there weren’t as many active Fixers as there are now. It blew up before we could step in.”
“And our man on the inside? He was swayed?”
“He became a sympathizer to the maniacal plans of Hitler. We’ve always worked hard to coexist with other races. But who knows what happened? Could be the stress of working undercover too long. You know the risks. What can happen.”
“You forget who you are. Only what you’re trying to be.”
“The lies become the truth,” said Zero. “This guy became what he supposedly hated.”
“You say supposedly.”
“There’s some evidence now that he might have duped the Council.”
“He was in league with the Nazis the entire time?”
Zero nodded. “It’s possible. Some of our kind over the years haven’t always accepted the idea that we should be in the shadows. They claim the birthright that humans have always owned. That puts us in a delicate position.”
“And this guy-“
“Probably wanted nothing more than to see the Jews exterminated as a means of setting other genocides in motion.”
“Today the Jews, tomorrow the Chinese, and so on…”
“Sure. With all of that going on, who would ever assume that there was an unknown race working behind the scenes to position themselves?”
“That kind of plan would take a helluva long time.”
Zero smiled. “Well, we do have that benefit of a longer lifespan. He might well have been very patient.”
Zero rolled to a stop in front of a rundown hotel. “Home for the night.”
I looked at the four-story structure and winced. I’d been in a lot of crappy joints in my relatively short time in the field, but this was pretty awful. The balconies sagged and the wood supporting the structure looked like it was ready to cave in at any moment. “This place safe?”
Zero shrugged. “By safe, I assume you mean it will keep us protected in the event our presence here hasn’t gone unnoticed. You’re not commenting on the overall structural integrity.”
“Actually, that’s exactly what I’m asking.”
“Oh, well, in that case, no. It’s not safe at all.” He peered out of the windshield. “If I had to hazard a guess, I’d say a good rain will bring it down.” He grinned. “Lucky for us, rain’s not in the forecast.” He pulled the Range Rover around the backside of the building and parked it.
“One more thing.”
I looked at him as he reached under the driver’s seat and came up with a pair of pistols. He handed me one. The Browning 9mm felt heavier than I remembered, but I’d been using the Beretta lately. I popped the magazine out, checked the top round and then topped it off before sliding the magazine back into the pistol. Zero racked his slide and glanced at me.
“We’ve got access to other weapons if we need them.”
“Will we?”
Zero’s smile flashed in the darkness. “They don’t ask stallions to haul hayseed, Lawson.”
We slid out into the humid night and Zero led us inside.
I stopped him. “So wait – which one of us is the stallion?”
Zero shook his head and wandered inside. I stayed on the front stoop in the shadows a few minutes longer, watching for any traffic that might have coasted in after us. A good surveillance team would know how to approach without showing their hand.
But the night didn’t reveal anything. Only a few scattered souls loitered in this part of town. I could smell the desperation in the air, though, and that’s never a good thing. Desperate people are likely to try anything. I didn’t want any of them coming up on me while I tried to get some sleep.
“Lawson.”
I glanced up. Zero waved me inside. We walked past the front desk where the clerk had already gone back to reading a newspaper. The stairs leading up to the third floor might have been made out of toothpicks.
“Don’t say it,” said Zero as we crested another floor.
“Just happy we haven’t plummeted to our deaths yet.”
We stopped outside a door and Zero handed me a key. “You’re next door.”
“Usual wake up?”
“Yeah.”
I hefted my bag and nodded. “See you then.”
I entered and tossed my bag on the bed. The springs groaned as the bag landed. I checked the room quickly, noting that it was clear of anyone waiting to kill me. At least for now.
A small door led to the balcony overlooking the street and I opened the windows up as well. A breeze blew in and cooled the interior down, but it was still hot. The room felt like an oven and I wondered how Zero was faring. The heat never bothered him as much as it did me, but he hated the cold.
I checked the room for any listening devices, but truth be told, there weren’t a whole lot of place for them to hide. All the usual suspects – behind the mirror, the telephone, the pot of wilting flowers, the overhead light – were clean. It didn’t mean the place was secure, but if there were any electronic bugs, I couldn’t find them.
The shower water ran brown for a bout five minutes before finally turning clear. I got a lukewarm temperature, stripped down and stepped inside. I’m not big on long showers – too much time in a compromising position – so I lathered up and got out, wrapping a towel around me while I dug some fresh clothes out of my bag.
Dressed again, I sat down on the edge of the bed and fished the hairbrush out of my kit. The handle unscrewed and a test tube filled with blood slid out into my hand. I frowned, popped the lid off and downed the contents before I could really taste any of it.
Weird, huh? A vampire who can’t even stand the taste of blood. Well, that’s me. I didn’t ask to be born into this race of living bloodsuckers and given my preference, I’d much rather have been part of the sect of humanity my kind branched off from. The food’s a helluva lot better.
I don’t even call it blood. To me, it’s a lot easier to drink if I call it “juice.” Hey, at least I’m honest about my personal hang-ups.
Revitalized as I was, the journey had me thinking about sleep, especially since Zero had promised one of his famous early-morning wake-up calls. To Zero, four in the morning was a good time to wake up. I much prefer sleeping in when I can. Lately, that hadn’t been often.
I slid the Browning under the pillow and then laid on the bed. I leaned back and found the pillow, despite its threadbare appearance, actually cradled my head nicely. A soft breeze blew in from outside and I let my eyes close, breathing in time to my slowing heartbeat…the rhythm of the heat…
…it invaded my dreams that night. Far off on a high plain where the tall grass whipped to and fro stood a man silhouetted by a blistering sun. I could hear the sound of tribal drums far off. The sun bit into my eyes, making me squint. I tasted the salt of my own sweat, my tongue felt thick and mossy. I craved water. Shade. A cool breeze. The man danced in time to the grass whipping around him. Clouds of dust caked the air. I struggled to breathe. And I could see he held something in his hands. With a sudden thrust, he seemed to stab it right at my heart-
-click.
Some sounds have the power to jerk you right out of a deep sleep. Especially when you’ve been trained to instantly categorize them and realize exactly what they meant.
I snapped my eyes open.
The sun from my dreams was replaced by a brilliant white flashlight burning into my face. But the light didn’t bother me.
The Colt 1911 that had been outfitted with a custom sound suppressor pointing right at my chest with its hammer drawn back, ready to fire bothered me a whole lot more.
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So I’ve let the first half of this essay sit out online for a few days now (despite telling you all that the companion piece would appear within 24 hours) because I wanted those who read it to let it sink in for a while. I know plenty of people who would read something like what I wrote and then pretend that it didn’t apply to them, because it’s easier to pretend than it is to take responsibility for one’s actions. That’s the thing about death; it’s easier to give up than it is to stay in the fight, keep swinging despite overwhelming odds, and still keep fighting when Death comes anyway. Conversely, birth is anything but easy (just ask any woman who has gone though labor and delivery!)
2010 dawns as any new year does: with millions of us vowing to enact new resolutions, new lifestyles, changes to our diet, our careers, our wallets. With startling regularity, these resolutions fall by the wayside as the days pass and the brightness of the New Year starts to wane as we trundle into February. Depending on your personal amount of self-discipline, those resolutions may last longer or shorter.
The question for 2010 isn’t what your resolutions are or how many you’re going to make/break. There’s only one question you have to answer: will 2010 be different? Will this be the year you steer your personal destiny toward greatness?
Greatness refers to anything you aspire to, any dream you’ve nurtured for years and years, any desire you might covet. Your definition of greatness is unique. It’s as individual as you are. As such, there should be very little actually stopping you from achieving it. In fact, I’d wager the single biggest obstacle to your achievement of greatness isn’t an external factor, but rather an internal one.
We’ve all got decisions we might regret; actions we took that didn’t pan out as we’d intended, things we wish we’d done. Those little regrets pile up inside of us; individually they’re small, but together they start to form impenetrable brick walls hindering our forward progression. How many brick walls do you have inside of you? Are there truly brick walls outside of you that hinder your progress? (In fairness, there might be…)
As you start 2010, don’t concentrate on the past (unless it’s to learn from previous mistakes) and the regrets you might have. You are where you are and there’s no amount of memory regression, thought backpedaling, or therapeutic horse puckey that’s going to change the past, since none of those things enable you to go back in time and change history. The present is where you are at now. The future lays before you. Your past is simply that: already passed. Honesty gives you the opportunity to understand what you truly want from life. Courage and discipline are the tools to earn that greatness you aspire to.
“If it was easy, everyone would be doing it.”
Self-help “gurus” are often fond of telling the masses that we can all be great. What they mean is that we all have the potential to be great. But most people will not embrace that potential because it’s a hard slog reaching it. It takes a gut-awful amount of work, blood, sweat, and tears that most people are simply not comfortable enduring. As such, the real truth is that most people won’t ever find greatness. At a certain point, they have that realization when they figure out how much work is involved and so instead of greatness, they aspire to mediocrity – that notion of “it’s good enough.” I’d argue that this is exactly why the United States of America is going to have a serious problem with other countries surpassing us in the future – because the majority of our citizens are lazy schlubs who live by that motto of “good enough.”
I’m not saying this because I hate the US, far from it. And if you know my background, you know I am very much a patriot. I say this because there’s an epidemic of mediocrity sweeping this nation. It’s why people fail to keep their resolutions. We, as a nation, have made failure a bad word. When every child makes a sports team or some parent calls up an employer because their recent college graduate failed to secure a job position, there’s a serious problem. Can you imagine the debacle if every candidate who tried out for Delta Force Selection was granted entry because the Directing Staff didn’t want to hurt their feelings? Instead of a top-notch special operations unit, we’d have a bunch of idiots entrusted with carrying out the most dangerous national security assignments (and as a result, we’d have a helluva lot of dead operators) It’s a ridiculous notion, right? But that’s exactly what we’ve done in most other areas of our society. Failure is bad, so instead, everyone “wins.” But winning is exactly what we aren’t doing. We’re cutting our very legs out from underneath us.
Failure isn’t bad at all. It’s how we measure ourselves, prove our mettle, and gain the perspective necessary to understand when we’re actually achieving greatness. Failure’s only bad if you allow it to overwhelm you and cause you to sit in the corner and sulk away the remainder of your life. The majority of the most successful people in the world have failed countless times. What distinguishes them from everyone else who failed is that they didn’t give up; they got back up, learned from the failure, and got back into the fight. They refused to accept the notion that things were “good enough.” They were honest with themselves, knew what they wanted, and kept going until they achieved that goal.
The birth of 2010 represents an incredible opportunity for all of us. I know what I’m aiming to achieve this year. I hope you’ll all take a few hours to analyze what your own goals or dreams are. Understand the reasons underlying those goals and dreams. Why do you want them? (be honest, there’s no “right” answer required – just an honest one. If you want millions of dollars so you can gloat at your annoying miserly cousin, then embrace that reason as honestly as you can.) Once you’ve done that, prepare yourself for battle. Tell yourself you’re not going to settle for “good enough.” Even if you fail the first time, you’re going to keep fighting until you win. Honesty, courage, and the discipline to keep going. One foot in front of the other in front of the other in front of the other…every step you take forward is one step further away from those who have given up and settled for “good enough.”